I was, I am created for something more...

Life seems to be going by faster and faster, either because it really does go by faster or im just growing up and i have more stuff to do and less time in my schedule.

It has been about almost 6 months since i've been back in Colombia, and all kinds of things have happened, lots of ups and dows, but nothing to regreat. So many things I've been able to learn and so many things im greatful for.

This past 2 weeks i was able to take a break, a vacation to go see my sister in Florida. Everything worked out perfect to be able to go to the hillsong conference, which was amazing, and also see all my friends and some family.

I finally got to apply to hillsong college which is amazing, a miracle and im finally being able to see where my life is going.

While i was in florida i had a lot of thinking time, a lot of events got to me and made me start thinking about life, thinking about everything.

So i've been working for 5 months here in Colombia, i have a great job, and great friends, cant complain. But every day is the same schedule, the same thing over and over again, i started to wonder, what am I really doing to bring a smile on God's face? yes im being a good girl, im even praying lots for others.

The last two weeks are marked in my heart forever now, i feel like it was a huge wake up call from daddy in heaven, he reminded me of soooo many things that i was starting to forget. He created me, all of us, for something more, not to just live for ourselves.

I've finally had the chance of having non christian friends, good relationships, and i've been able to see everything from a different point of view. The friends i have now are probably a huge blessing to ME! I have been able to experice so many different things through them. It's def been a new challange but i love it.

I've become a huge lover of books.... i know shocking for me, all this books, people and thoughts have taken over my head.

and all i know is that God is calling me inside, he is reminding me that im created to do whatever he says. im created because he wants me to serve him, and truly that is what makes me happy. When i sit at work, go out with people i have a good time, but when i get a chance to help someone out, even if it's giving a bread out, my heart feals something diffrerent, it's a joy that sometimes is very hard to explain, but it's the kind of joy that keeps me going every day.

Most people live to go to school, graduate, get married, perhaps have kids and eventually grandkids. But then once you have it all what's next?

i keep reminding my self everyday that i do not want a normal life, i do wants all the things that normal girls want, i am a romantic, but i know that i will not have true happiness unless i make my goal be about seeing others also be happy.

Most of the times i dont understand myself, but it's again back to LOVE. and what it all really means.

While i was in indonesia with the kids in the slums, something that touched me and ripped me apart was seeing how some of them could die from a simple cut.

Even though i believe in the power of prayer i believe we are called to do more!!!!

it drives me craazy to just sit here.

I know i need to be responsible, keep working, but while i get to go and do more i can do stuff on the side, there are people in my own city, prob my own neighborhood that need help somehow.

Most times we all think oh i can do missions and yes we all can and they think , well we think it can only be done when we get on a plane and go somewhere far. but nooooo the truth is that right here there are people that also need help, anywhere we go there is something to do, some one to help and sometimes...even a smile helps :)

anyways, while i hear back from hillsong, while i work i know i can help out and im going to make it part of my life, cause i believe i was created for something else.