So since I've been back in Colombia i have been woundering what im doing here.
During DTS, more while in indonesia i felt like God spoke about my future being hillsong, not sure of when but somewhere down the road. Of course i wanted it to be faster then what it has been...also during lecture phase God clearly spoke about Colombia waiting and other things coming before me living here again.
But then things changed, and very fast.
I kept asking God questions and trying to figure things out, and in way im still asking a lot of questions.
Then about a week ago, i started a journal again, and its sooo surprising how spending time with God really changes everything. I mean i really shouldnt be surprised anymore when God does amazing things, after all he always does them and never fails us.
But while i was writing, God started showing me step by step what he has done in my life.
Yes this past months have been hard, have been different and have been something i never imagined doing.
Ive been living pretty much on my own, away from my family but very close at the same time, ive had to work my butt off . Ive pretty much had to really grow up this time.
In all my traveling before, all the different things i never lived this. Yes ive been on my own but usually under an organization, a family or even under my own parents. This time it has been me and just me, having to make my own decisions, having to learn a lot.
So God was showing me that he has brought me here to teach me, to guide me and to help me find myself and find out who i really im. He has shown me that yes i can be responsible, he has shown me that things can get hard but that if i stay close to him and really hold on to his word anything is possible.
So all this time has been about my relationship with him getting stronger, about me growing up and me finding out who i am when im alone.
God is sooo great that not only does he take care of me, teaches me, guides me, but also has a way of showing me what he is doing. God is an amazing dad that takes care of ALL the details.
and yes....there are days i still feel tired and very confused. Days where i have no idea what to do, but i know that he does have a purpose for everything.
And he even remembered that i wanted to spend time with my family and here i am confused because he brought me back to do just what i wanted to do. I love Colombia and he has even given me the chance to enjoy it in the way i love to. Im just falling more and more in love with my God.
