A day to Myself

So today, im home early and spending some time alone. somethign i dont do very often but something that is necessary every once in a while.
Im sitting here letting my mind wounder off.....usually this happens quite often until i start going crazy with all this thinking or then i hit the pillow and fall asleep.

I usually think lots about the future, lots about what im going to do, how im going to do it and where im going to be. Its not bad until i think about it too much and start to worry.
i have sooo many questions and things i would love to know.

but i need to pause, and really live the moment. im sure that the future will be great, im certain that God has amazing plans, and i do want to know them but i need to focus on right now. on what im doing for him at this moment.

ug things are always so much easier said then done. i want to know so much, i want to get ahead of myself.

There are so many things to be done here, i´ve been busy with work, but there are still so many hours left of a day to be able to help out in other things. i know ive been lazy but i really want to do as much as i can, after all we do live only once, on this earth at least. and i want to make it the best, i want to take advantage of every second of my life, i want to be able to say i did everything i could and that was in my hands. I want to be able to be part of others peoples lives and be a positive influence somehow.

When people say, "leave it all in Gods hands" its true! but i mean true, i need to leave it in his hands, all of it, my future my worries my everything and i know he will help me. things wont go away, its not magic, he will help me with everything and i do truly believe it from the bottom of my heart! he is that awesome.


So anyways as im sitting here im trying to think of the things that really matter to me in this life... and thinking about what im doing about them. askign God to show me exactly where he wants me right now. so this is what im doing....putting priorities in order :)